3O January 1913  London

Dear Professor Freud,

«IP4,0»I don't know if you are [in] the mood to welcome any letter of mine, and you know already all I can say, but I must write to thank you for being so good to Loe at such a critical time.  I am more thankful than I can say that she has you to fall back on, and that she has decided to go on with the analysis.

The relation with Lina was an old affair (which explains the identification behind her hysterical attacks), and in Italy I was fully determined to break it off.  But some devil of desire made me yield to the temptation.  I do not feel very guilty about my relation to her, nor did it indicate any abnormality in myself, but something tells me from within that the continuation of it in Wien was dictated by a repressed spirit of hostility against my dear wife,«MDSU»x«MDNM» «FN1.××"«MDSU»x«MDNM» as punishment for her anaesthesia" is written out on the left hand side of the page.

» and you can imagine what heart‑rending remorse that is causing me.  That is the secret of an otherwise inexplicable inconsiderateness and «MDUL»Leichtfertigkeit«MDNM» [thoughtlessness].  That I should have done something to wound her, whom I love so passionately and for whom I would do anything to save her, is almost beyond my endurance to bear.

I would beg you to do everything possible for her, did I not know that your goodness of heart would do that from itself.

Jones.

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